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vision marijuana will give you at this stage is that you are at the center
of your universe. The clarity of your dreams, visions and goals will attain
superb and delicious definition. Whatever you intend will seem to happen
as if by magic. You’ll be ‘in the Zone.’ Everything
you do will be a testimony to your groundedness and capacity to achieve.
Bonding and maturation become your way of life. Your personal relationships
develop and flourish. You become a professional at whatever you do. You’re
tough and you make power moves every chance you get. Your appetite for
life just can’t be satisfied.
Then something changes. As this phase peaks and begins to descend, you’ll
begin to enjoy exploiting people just for fun. You’ll become a self-centered
terminator, espousing a philosophy of survival and rugged individualism.
As marijuana inches you down its path, you’ll begin to feel that
the close relationships you’ve developed in this phase are getting
a little too close. You’ll start shutting people out with a very
strong sense of boundaries.
Oddly enough, at the same time you’re pushing people away from your
boundaries, you’ll experience a needy, hungry anxiety when they
separate from you.
As marijuana takes you into the next phase, it begins to damage your Yi,
which means thinking and intention. You’ll have a shorter attention
span, a reduced ability to perform tasks requiring concentration and coordination,
and impairments in learning, thinking, retaining knowledge, problem solving
and forming concepts. As the marijuana does further damage to your Yi,
you’ll discover an increasing inability to do anything in the real
world.
You may begin to lose weight as marijuana’s Fire further injures
your digestive Yin. If the Fire congests in your Stomach and creates Hot
Phlegm, it may then affect your Heart System, and you’ll experience
a strong spontaneous desire to climb things. If the Hot Phlegm gets caught
at the level of your Pericardium System, you’ll find it difficult
to lie down. You may begin to have outright hallucinations as you feel
more and more like nothing is holding your life together anymore.
