As marijuana begins to affect your Kidney Qi, Yang and Yin, you will go through several spirals of rising and falling ideals that grow in intensity and consequences.

The initial experiences you will have as marijuana begins to affect your Kidney System will be cosmic. You'll have times when you'll feel like you're receiving energy from the world, the universe and the divine. You'll live in an eternal here and now, emanating a deep sense of awe and reverence for universal truth. You'll tap into an acceptance of the incomprehensible nature of being and rest in a deep and natural faith. You'll surrender the illusion of false security and abandon yourself and your fate to life's mystery. You will become the organic, connected spirit you were born to be, expanding beyond all sense of limitations and rooting yourself at the center of your universe.

From this magnificent and ultimate crescendo your energy will flip like a switch. You'll transform from being the creative center of your universe to believing you're the center of the universe. Your expansiveness will change to need. You'll need to feel important. You'll need to feel safe. At the same time, you'll begin to believe that other people or energies or life itself is out to get or oppress you. Instead of being one with the unknown, you'll come to fear it. You will set up your life to avoid fear at all costs. Depressions might descend on you without any discernable cause or timing. As marijuana begins to consume your Kidney System you'll lose your faith and ability to perceive the world with appropriate wonder and respect. You will lose your power to evolve and grow. Arrogant and impotent, you'll always seem to lurk in the aura of an explosive and dangerous sense of violence.

To make matters worse, you won’t be in touch with what this dark side is, and you may play it out in all sorts of unconscious ways. Your dark energy will attract sinister characters and situations to complete your shadowy picture of the world. As this happens and the marijuana drags you further along its course you'll become closed down, inaccessible and unable to deal with people. You won't be able to look others in the eye. You'll seem cool on the outside, but can fly into hateful rages if you don’t get what you want when you want it. You may act out your violence through sex, coupling your sexual intensity with a sense of finality and death as if each moment could be your last.

As marijuana brings you into the next stage, you'll become a rigid conformist. You won't consider yourself to be a rigid conformist, though, because in this phase you'll get involved with esoteric things. You'll regard your system, whatever it is, above everything and everyone. You'll call yourself 'Spiritual' and you'll make sure that everybody knows it. The truth of it is that you will become inflexible, and spend more and more time and energy in an effort to get everybody and everything around you to conform to your system. If the marijuana damages your Yang energy more than your Yin, you'll become a devoted follower. If it damages your Yin more than your Yang, or if you experience a flush of Yang in the Shining Ideal phase, you may become a leader.

The essence of this phase of marijuana poisoning is that you'll go spiritual instead of taking on the responsibilities of your life. On the outside you’ll appear to be an angel of empathy, kindness and caring, accepting everything that comes your way in the spirit of universal love. Yet your spirituality will be impersonal and will break down whenever you face the real world. The damage marijuana has done to you at this point will cause your eyes to radiate one of two distinct qualities during this phase: spaced out if you're falling to the Yin side, or a zealous, crazy fire if you’re on the Yang side.

As the marijuana damages your Kidney Yang, you’ll lose energy and interest in sex and pretty much everything else in life. You’ll only want to curl up and stay warm, get nourished, read and daydream empty fantasies. You’ll concoct elaborate, beautiful and impossible schemes and live in the faith of their reality. You’ll believe that everything in your life is about to come together because of some magical benevolent force that loves you.

As marijuana continues to damage you over time, and your fantasies just don’t come true, your world will begin to turn disappointing and dark. You’ll become more and more paranoid as it seems like the people you loved and trusted betray you. You’ll come up with data and actual proof of a sinister web of malevolent intentions, wrongdoers and an establishment where you are innocent, helpless and victimized.

It’s not just in your mind. Your behaviors are draining away the physical basis of your Spirit’s competence in the world. At this point, there’s not much left in you that could draw you toward positive energy, people and experiences.

As the marijuana continues to degrade your Kidney System, you'll go into a phase where you’ll believe you know everything about everything. This phase often couples with your posture falling apart, which shows that you’re losing the spine to accomplish anything in the real world. Yet if you can find proper guidance at this stage, you may be able to point yourself toward higher forms of learning and really develop yourself to be the genius you think you are. By this time you've slipped out of society's groove enough to have a unique and valuable perspective on the world. It will take both subtlety and discipline to forge you into this super-being. Your window of time to do it won’t stay open for long. If you continue to damage yourself with marijuana it may open and close again before you realize what’s happening.

If you don't make it through the window, you can descend into an endless paranoia that feeds your self-absorbed universe. If you have enough Jing Sexual Essence to support yourself, this phase can go on for a very long time. But when your Jing runs down and gets depleted, you’ll experience a complete burn out of everything in your life.

Whichever way it goes, some very interesting things can happen in the next turn of marijuana’s spiral. The marijuana is challenging your core energetic system to maximum levels in this stage. This challenge will evoke special powers out of you, but only for a short time. This is your Jing's response to its survival getting threatened. You may have incidences of seeing into the future, going into shamanic trances where you leave your body, or you may discover a whole deeper purpose in your life. If your mind won’t let go enough to let you be so exotic, you may develop an intense desire to have a child or to leave a legacy behind you when you die.

All of these symptoms are just a preamble to losing your Heat. You’re about to lose your life force and your will, maybe even your will to live. As the marijuana comes ever closer to your energetic core, you may slip out of time. You might get confused as to where you are in your life. You'll enter new levels of paranoia as step by step you lose your power to act in any way.

At this stage, your Zhi, your will, is going into its final throes of poisoning. Laziness, procrastination and impotence on every level will be the hallmarks of your very low levels of achievement in life. No vision of the future whatsoever will replace the wonderful dreams that marijuana gave you way back when. Your existence will lose all forward movement. You'll become skeptical about everything, because you won't believe that anybody else has the power to do the things that you can't do. You'll get defensive and blame everyone but yourself for your failures. You'll take on the collective dream of searching for an easy way out, 'the good life.' You won't be able to follow through with anything because of your endless fear. You will experience total stagnation. You'll want sex but won't be able to do it. You'll be dull. Other people will describe you as being not the brightest bulb or the sharpest tack. You'll have very little strength, no matter how much you train or exercise, but you'll only do such things if others force you to do them, anyway. Your will is almost gone.

Then marijuana will start to give you visions again. This time they will be of superiority. If marijuana’s Hot Poison goes more to your left-brain, you’ll begin to believe that logical thought is everything. You’ll create a faux-scientific world in which you’ll believe you can explain the cause and effect relationship of every aspect of your life and experience. If marijuana’s Poison goes more into your right-brain, you’ll believe that intuition is everything, and create a world that conforms to whatever that means to you. Whichever way it goes will influence the nature of how you use the final stages of your energy in this life.

The damage you’ve done to your learning and cognitive skills at this point will be substantial. Yet at a certain stage of the process, even though you might not be able to remember what happened to you just 5 minutes ago, your energy and focus will come together to unite the ghost of your personal will with cosmic and/or historical forces. Past, present and future will align with absolute perfection to reveal the powerful destiny you were always meant to have.

Is it real, or are you insane? That will be the question on everybody’s mind as you begin to transcend all of your past limitations. When your Jing Sexual Essence gets challenged to the final levels you may begin to cross over to another plane of existence, one where union with the divine will tap you into infinite reserves that you can call on whenever you need them. As long as you keep your focus on a quest for the common good, love between people and political freedom, these divine forces will continue to support you.

The instant you lose that focus, however, you’ll understand there’s nothing left of you. When you get high you might trip out on your teeth, thinking they’re falling apart, falling out or turning to mush. You’ll feel like your bones are melting or crumbling to powder. You’ll become obsessed with death and how death is breathing down your neck, stalking you at every turn.

As marijuana poisons the final levels of your will and it begins to die, you’ll become a brutal competitor in everything you do. Ideals of individualism and survival of the fittest will be the glittering veneer you paint over your brutality as you create your own ultimate us-against-them battle and play it out in the world around you.

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